Comments on: Hi!!

By: Anna

Anna — Fri, 01 May 2009 21:16:41 +0000

Stumbled in via Dion Burn and discovered that your blog is worth a lot more than just reading your last entry… ..so will be sure to take my time and read from the beginning.

By: Lonesome Loser

Lonesome Loser — Tue, 07 Apr 2009 20:46:53 +0000

Hi Katie,
Thanks for commenting, I’m so glad you did. It’s good to hear from another same-sex unrequited lover. I know what you mean, it can be very powerful (and long-lasting) yet the fear of rejection is just too strong to act. How did you know your boss had feelings for you?
LL

By: Katie

Katie — Tue, 07 Apr 2009 04:07:36 +0000

Wow, I feel like I just read my own blog. This hits so close to home it hurts.

I fell in love with my boss. It was an internship, so I was only there for the summer, but it was the most exhilarating and painful 3 months of my life. The hardest part for me was that I was (and am) certain she had feelings for me as well. But I couldn’t be 100% sure and was too afraid to find out. We exchanged some follow-up emails (which she initiated), but I was so afraid of rejection that I did not pursue her. I still regret it.

It was years later before I could finally move on. There was a death in the family, and she wasn’t there for me. We had completely lost touch with each other, but I felt that she should have been there to comfort me. If she loved me, should have known that I needed her. I felt so angry that she never said she was sorry for my loss. I know it sounds crazy, but I was at the funeral and I was angry at her!

So now I’d like to say I’ve moved on. The problem is that I know I’d take her back in a heartbeat. I know I would forgive her for hurting me. But at least now I don’t think about her all the time…

By: Dion Burn

Dion Burn — Wed, 11 Mar 2009 02:40:53 +0000

LL,I have just finished reading your blog and reliving my own sadness, embarrassment, shame and hopeless hope all over again. Not that I’m over Julie. I was hoping to find,also, in reading here, the moment, the epiphany, in which you knew you were over her, so that I might hope for one myself. But it just fades doesn’t it? That seems to me nearly as sad as being unrequited. I don’t know if I could stand it taking as long as it has for you. And you have distance; I have to see Julie every day at work.

You’ve influenced me to believe I’m in love with Julie, as well as to feel that my blog is facing termination. But you’ve made me feel not so all alone, too, if a member of a pathetic club. I’m touched by many of the comments above mine on this post, especially Jeff’s. I may turn to your website, but I’m worried if may help me wallow more than forget.

By: Lonesome Loser

Lonesome Loser — Sat, 21 Feb 2009 19:34:56 +0000

Hi Jeff, Thanks for commenting. I totally understand how you are feeling, I felt the same way -- blindsided, a need to hide my feelings, hide my eyes, knowing I can't really successfully do that. What feels not legitimate or wrong about loving your loved one? You can EMAIL if you would rather not leave a comment...