It’s funny how I feel differently now. I still miss her, am still in pain and want to be close to her, but I just don’t feel in love with her anymore. I don’t have that intrusive, feverish quality that I had up until about last month or so. I’m really focused on my website and blog now, maybe that’s a way of keeping her alive without relying on intensity of feeling to do so. I still think about her a lot, a whole lot, but I just can’t convince myself she might have been interested and unable to show/express it. I just feel pathetic, but again not really in control of the process. I’m thinking about her all the time and she’s never thinking about me and she’s happily married and she’s probably going to be pregnant soon and she is really gone and it’s so painful and I still miss her….
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Posted: December 28th, 2008 under Uncategorized.
Tags: falling out of love, grief, shame
